i hate her. i want to kill that bitch

my life is being controlled here. i hate her. really, i do.

why am i being forced to do things that i dont want?
whats wrong with me wanting to go out and enjoy life like other kids my age?

why GOD created such a person?
why GOD let her live?

WHY?

im trying to look at the positive side of things. but it seems that there are NO positive thinking in this case!

why cant GOD instill more courage in me so as to speak up for myself
&
rebel
&
show her that she is being a nuisance in my life?

WHY, WHY, WHY, WHY, WHY?