HIDAYAH's blog

i don't know if im being emotional or not. while im typing this, im on the verge of tears.

my mum did not win a car today. instead $500 as a consolation prize. im not angry with my mum for choosing the wrong key. instead, im angry with myself for not following my instinct. in my head, i was thinking about the middle key. and true enough, it was the right one!

my mum was sick. she was vomitting at that time. i feel sorry for her that i can't do anything. but at the same time, i felt angry and piss off for being so stubborn as she did not bring her medicine with her!

then in the car, she started vomitting again! obviously fat aunt and also myself was piss off! i know that im at fault here and i should not be piss off. but, seeing my fat aunt piss off and my mum vomitting, the more i thought of my mistake- that was, not following my instinct.

if only we had win the car then the atmosphere will be so much different! at least, my mum would not feel so sick and fat aunt won't be fed-up and piss off and i won't feel bad and blame myself.

* for those of you who don't understand what im writing then don't read ok. its just that feeling that i can't really explain.